pangpang

2010-01-01T16:35:00.001+08:00

2009-11-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

2009-11-03T21:52:00.001+08:00

午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
玩风琴就是爱瞎闹堆积着无暇
我跟着站在壁沙岸让你放不下

这风景如画院子里画沙
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
挑上脸挑上花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
傻傻的还想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

爱过你的风沙我也一样值得你爱
管他风怎么刮管雨就怎么下
回头过去原来别说傻
回头不说一次值得吧
我爱上这泪光问你会不会爱我

这种景如画院子里画沙
等我们的童话等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

2009-10-31T02:57:00.001+08:00

开不了口 =(

2009-10-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

why does time seem to pass so damn slowly recently??=C
can the clock dun go ticktockticktock but brooooooombrooooom instead?-.-
for the rest of 2009, im oni left with 2 impt things to accomplish,
1. gp on the 11 nov
2. tp on the 1 dec
yes n i still rmb tt im gg for gp retake tis 11 nov, but im still procrastinating =(
haiz.. cant find the right mood to really mug for it..

tmr i'll be having another driving lesson wif uncle lim since a long break in btw becos of him gg oversea.. shit man.. im worrying tt i might lose the feel of driving manual car again =C
n i NEED NEED NEED to pass my tp badly tis 1 dec!!!
i want to join the triangle plate vios racing team^^ lol.. n go brooooooooooombroooooooooom!

同样简单的一句话, 却从不同人的嘴里说出..

2009-10-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

我一个人的沙发上还有你拥抱的力量
起身才看见孤独的形状在空气里曝光
明明是咖啡不加糖怎么喝还是懒洋洋
你不在的天气装了开关碰到天就黑暗
我以为爱一直闪亮
现在剩一个人坚强
想念在手中张开变翅膀
我还懂不懂飞翔
忘记了我懂飞翔
我看见爱一直在闪亮
想逃的心改变了方向
只因这城市情歌太悲伤
才让一碗热汤红了眼框
电视里爱情播不完
怎么转才能离开现场
如果我承认你让我很难忘
结局能不能换

new song.. heard on YES93.3
to my surprise, daddy told mi he like the song "what hurts the most" HAHAHA..
cos he listened to all the songs i uploaded into the cd to put in the car.. lol..
funny shit..
imagine an uncle trying to sing tis song but duno the lyrics.. laugh till my teeth dropped!

2009-10-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

I hold it true, whatever befall
I feel it through, when I sorrow most.

2009-10-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

BITCH.

2009-10-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

爱到尽头覆水难收
爱悠悠恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流独自忍受
多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续难再续
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你付出我所有

2009-10-04T19:27:00.001+08:00

路太弯梦在转错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人的安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

2009-10-03T05:51:00.000+08:00

2009-10-01T18:40:00.001+08:00

2009-09-29T22:50:00.003+08:00

haiz.. jus came hm frm driving... sucks! i duno y but i kept making mistakes..
how am i gg to pass my tp like tis.. i shld stop driving auto car alrdy..
i hate tat pair of shoes.. it brings mi memories, yet i cant feel the biting point when holding the clutch.. instructor kept talking n talking.. n the topic he talked abt jus made me think n think.. i cant focus.. fuck..

我以为我已经放下了..
每当听到你的名字
每当想起你，心仍有一道伤口，隐隐作痛

2009-09-29T18:34:00.001+08:00

2009-09-27T13:03:00.003+08:00

been playing mahjong for 3 days..
procrastinating.. no studying for gp.. seh lor..
haiz.. dun really feel like gg for the paper..
but i wan to change course! i dun wan go mech engineering in ntu!!!
freaked out when i looked at sq's notes.. gone case physics n math..
but if i wan to change course, i gt to go for gp n must get a better grade..
arghhhh..

really tired.. tired.. tired.. tired..

i wish i can take a break from life.. apply leave or smth.. get a passport to go to another world for an excursion or wad.. and come back realizing everything has changed..

too bad im nt xiao ding dang..

new life..

2009-09-17T18:50:00.004+08:00

My first day at mindef..
totally different life frm any army camps.. i realised for mi im nt consider booking in, but instead reporting for work.. when i reached the place, the whole mindef building is so highly secured with all the mps around.. no more familiar faces when i reached, no one i know walking in with mi anymore.. i miss my bmt brothers n friends, my alpha brothers and all the sgts n sirs..

things here work in a less physical way.. i dun hav to put on my head dress anywhere i go n i wont be wearing no.4 soon, after my no.3 is rdy for collection.. im allowed to use hp as n when i like, bring mp3 n psp to camp without getting a LOA.. no more cook house here, oni canteen, but bad thing is i hav to pay for every meal.. overall.. mindef life is less intense as compared to sce life, mainly cos it's less regimental.. i dun hav to worry abt who is gg to shout alpha, alpha n demanding a response frm u or who's gg to shout knock it down u fucking cb duno how to reply right.. jus like wad harris said, it seems like u r unlocking all the privileges in a split second.. i see a large pool of officers around, n there are nt jus 2LT or LT.. instead.. in g5 office, the lowest officer rank i seen so far is a cpt.. an officer wif the rank of a major is so freaking common.. i see crabs here n there.. but i didnt salute any, nor greet anyone of them wahahaha... pte dominates!

perhaps first day at mindef is relatively okay, but who noes wad's gonna happen tmr, or after i been given an appointment.. i hope my life wont be like doing all kinds of work n rushing against time like most office clerks out there.. i noe it's gonna be mundane, but i hope to enjoy the rest of my service term peacefully, without having to sign any extras or whatsoever..

till then.

2009-09-16T01:40:00.002+08:00

i wan watch movie!!
cant believe i gt 6days off but i didnt even watch a single movie! damn..
sian.. i cant find a suitable date for driving test!!!!

haiz haiz haiz...

第一次是偶然
第二次是必然
第三次试命中注定

2009-09-13T04:02:00.001+08:00

i feel like a loser..
i been hoping n praying tt i will get posted out of jurong camp 30sce ever since the first day i got into tis camp.
now i got it.. ive posted out.. will be gg to mindef g5 tis thurs.. most likely is a 8 to 5 clerk.. but nw i dun feel like leaving..
8 to 5 vocation means a lot to me in the past but nt to me nw..
having gone thru all the shits wif alpha platoon 3, it's sad tt im leaving tis bunch of brothers nw..
first day i stepped into the camp, the buildings like old deserted and haunted factories with lots of drains which will cause severe mosquito breeding.. the people i see there are like cui! n mi n kahkian were like cursing y we r posted here.. in this 3 months, i realized tt all these cui people actually are very very nice ppl.. they each hav a character n style of their own and came frm different backgrounds.. but been thru all the tekanings, all the trainings, all the pts, all the area cleaning sessions, bonds are formed.. this bonds are special.. i nv tot tt jc ppl can mingle well wif poly dropped out or smokers who looked like some uncivilised social scums.. but nw these bonds are even stronger than C=C double bond..

alright, im leaving.. hope that u guys will progress well.. as a combat engineer with a strong n healthy body..
n oso blessed that i will meet nice n helpful ppl at mindef!
i'll miss u guys!
n i miss u nw.

i finally continued my driving lesson again.. uncle lim allowed me to go n take test date le!! im gg for TP!!!
im determined to get my license within tis yr! argh!!!

uncle lim really noes fortune telling?
n jus by looking at my palm?
if he's true, tis is bad.. how can i change my fate?

i wanna buy psp3006!!! ipod touch!!!
should i?

2009-09-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

2009-09-07T13:33:00.000+08:00

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

2009-09-04T21:58:00.004+08:00

finally booked in on wed night.. i cant slp in camp..
too used to my own bed at home after att c at home for 4days..
went to physiotherapy alone on thurs morning :(
thurs was a bad day becos i dun feel good tt day.. rather emo :(
today was fun being an OO :) quite a lot of things to do to kill time..
helped a lot of sgts to run some errands n to handle some documents..
gt the sense of accomplishment when the sgts and sirs said thankyou for your help! =D

what can i do to change, if the thing i wanna change is my life?

2009-08-31T14:53:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHH!!! im fucking bored!!!!
ATT C always seem like an enjoyment for chao geng msf to take a break frm army n get to stay at home n do wad they wan..
but to me.. i always hope to fall sick n get att c when im in camp, but everytime when i really hav it, i will feel super bored at home.. nth to do.. nth to play.. nth to watch.. no one to chat with..

haiz.. although i noe tt today mi n yingneng, the only 2 oo are both nt in camp, which means the office will oni be mended by the cos of the day.. thus there is lesser tendency tat the cos will call to do the routine check, cos the cos will be busy n tired n lazy to do the calling.. but i jus dun dare to go out.. i dun wan risk.. cos i dun wan kena sol 7days or wadever shit..
arghhhh im so bored!

nw all i can do is to look for 3 more players to come my hse to play mahjong..
but who can i call?!?
the guys are in camp, the girls are either in uni, or in poly studying..
ahhh im like a gone fuk!!!

i wan get my fucking driving license asap..
n i mean ASAP!!!
i wan to drive badly!
i wan to go 120 or 130 0r 140 km/h like how my sis always did on expressway..
i no nid any company, i will jus blast music n go on high speed around singapore alone..
few more months to go :(

anyone free for talking cock, singing song, or playing mahjong? pls contact me @ 96568966! im freaking rotting at home =C

2009-08-29T22:07:00.001+08:00

heard tis song recently in camp..
sgt zhi wen sang tis song one of the night in sect3.. his singing damn imba..

爱相随周华健

别想你忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心有些事也要过去
心很痛痛的不想再做我自己
别回头情已去缘已尽
很想你也不是因为失去你
爱了你用尽我全心全力
一生情只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒
人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情你给了谁
(music)
很想你也不是因为失去你
爱了你用尽我全心全力
一生情只为这一次与你相遇
情难了难再续难再醒
人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
我如何面对
人分飞爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么能追得回
与你相慰我为你痴为你累
风雨我都不後悔
我又怎么有路可退
曾经深情你给了谁
(END)

2009-08-29T06:00:00.000+08:00

yea im back to civilian life once again.. a slightly longer book out..
been oo for 2days in alpha.. life is very relax for these 2 days..
heard a lot of stuffs frm the storeman, a lot of nonsense actually..

ive been thinking n thinking since arafat read to me abt the horoscope thingy frm newspaper
i dun understand.. been trying to figure out wad it means..
fuk! since when hav i become so superstitious towards such thingy.. argh...
all bullshit!

2009-08-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

i been living my life aimlessly day by day :(

ahhhh.. i dunno wad im doing..
i wan find back my goals in life..

2009-08-06T21:12:00.001+08:00

2009-08-06T20:32:00.002+08:00

yes! finally can booked out..
funpacking in 30sce is finally over!
packed 10.6k fucking funpacks on wed n 6k today..
this marked an end to the fun packing for ndp..

went for my first physiotherapy on tue.
finally understood wad is fucking wrong wif my back.
a lot of restrictions, no more sports in my life.
no one can understand how i feel.
fuck it ccb.

你开心就好, 我已管不了..

告诉自己，忘了吧,放开吧，以前做的到，现在也能

wad's so special with rjc gals?

2009-07-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

yeah finally changed back to G700 after using the kuku fone for 3weeks plus..
tis fone brings me a lot of memory for the past few months.. but nw there's nth inside le..
i duno wad can i put as my wallpaper nw :(

gt to book in 8pm tonight.. sucks to be me:-(

2009-07-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

天快亮了能不能别离开呢
沉默像首悲伤的歌无声视线却模糊了
你要走了也带走所有快乐
甜蜜的片段散落了
你倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星闪过我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离你怎麽放弃了

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

离开我了梦醒了还剩什麽
我要的幸福消失了
你的心曾经属於我的

那流星闪过我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离你怎麽放弃了

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

有过的快乐我都记得
回忆还旋转着爱怎麽停了
我们都泪了

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开

it's been 6days alrdy.. been trying hard to sleep every night but ending up always cannt sleep.
i tell myself im ok, life still goes on..
i tell myself nt to tink, but cant help it..
那种当初的感觉消失了，
我也累了，
希望你能好好过.

面对生活，我必须适应，
多么痛苦，我必须挨过，
希望已变成了一种盼望而盼望也变成了绝望.
我只渴望下次能有更好的情路.

我好累，好累..
好想流泪，但却一直含住了泪，
我不伤心，我不难过，
我只不过好失望，好心酸..
或许在雨中我的泪水才会滑落..

对不起

2009-07-15T15:13:00.001+08:00

compromise.promise.trust.confidence.
they work hand in hand.
n it takes 2 hands to clap..

2009-07-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

tis week is a bad week.
i duno wad happened.
i feel very stress.
i am at a lost of wad to do.
i feel like dying now.
i felt tt im being treated like a dog.

someday when im gone in this world
will my presence then be appreciated?

2009-06-30T17:46:00.003+08:00

wwowwww!!! im so proud of myself.. i stayed at home the whole afternoon after coming back frm lunch..

things i done...

woke up at 10+am
lai chuang lai chuang lai chuang
received baby msg den rush off to wash up n meet baby
ate lunch at Aston jurong
went to walk around at imm while baby is driving
took train n lrt back wif baby
chat online with friends which i nv get a chance to do so since enlistment
wash hamsters' cages n played wif meatball, sotongball n orhh orhh...
signed up for livejournal
n here i am blogging! ")

anw my new livejournal url is..
http://pangpangpang.livejournal.com

haha im so bored!
off to dinner~
ciao..

2009-06-29T22:22:00.006+08:00

yeah.. im still alive..
posted to jurong camp, 30SCE.. a place like hell to be in..
sgts there are strict, platoon sgt there is f-up! seriously..
went for medical appointment at mount-e last sat, hope the letter Dr tong wrote can help me..

been wif my princess for the past few days since thurs i booked out at 10plus at night..
haha.. for ur info, mi n baby chiong-ed quite a no. of movies for the past few weeks.. for the critics of the movies.. kindly refer to baby's blog.. lol =D

ok.. there is a list of movies coming up next which im interested in.. heehee..

Ice Age 3: Dawn Of The Dinosaurs
Duplicity
Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince
Obsessed
G.I Joe: Rise Of Cobra

2009-06-17T01:31:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT.

2009-06-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

haha.. no time to blog for the past few weeks..
every book out i've spent wif this pretty princess over here.. erm.. pic below..

here i am nw to roughly update abt wad happened tis few weeks..
yeah.. POP LO... finally left tekong n no nid to take tt ferry back there anymore(hopefully X *cross finger*)

yeah.. baby n family came to my graduation parade to help mi put on my jockey cap and accompanied mi home b4 gg for dinner tgt... weather was damn hot and i was running a fever.. damn.. reached hm wif a degree of 38.3..
got my cbs award one day b4 pop :)

been gg out for the past few days except yesterday.. stayed n cooked wif baby at home..
yeah.. tmr gg kbox wif baby.. hehehe.. lalala..
hopefully section gathering on thurs will still be on...

2009-05-23T00:46:00.004+08:00

baby wants mi to do a survey..

she cuter or i cuter?

wahahaha!

2009-05-16T00:52:00.004+08:00

yeah.. i jus booked out..
one of the 23 frm my platoon who booked out successfully tis weekend out of 51..
met baby once i got home n bathed.. went to eat burger king! was craving for it for days..

had a talk wif baby at burger king n at the lift area..
but i feel insecured suddenly..
n maybe i think too much le bah..

yes i admit, im afraid of losing her again.

things get out of hand when u urself allow it to get out of hand..
it's all abt the commitment one has bah..

i jus hope to quarrel less wif baby frm nw on..

2009-05-10T18:08:00.003+08:00

yeah 2nd book out.. but will be booking in in 1 more hour plus.. siann...

ok.. 2nd book out feels as good as the first book out.. partly becos i was confined again due to the freaking field camp.. a lot of things happened.. injuries.. knocked out.. haiz.. may be send for medical review by my platoon commander..

within this 2 days.. i went out wif my princess to watch movies, walk walk.. shop shop and eat n eat n eat.. lol..
ate ajisen, SU korean cuisine and oso one veri special meal (cos it's prepared by me! LOL chef pangpang back in action!) yeah..
watched 2 shows, wolverine and star trek.. both were quite nice!

yeah.. let pictures do the talking..

gt to book in le.. bye.. miss u baby

2009-04-26T01:56:00.003+08:00

yea.. my first book out! but will be booking in in approximately 18hours more.. sian! suck thumb..
no choice..

tekong life is generally still quite okay for me nw.. yes.. for now oni.. i dunno wad will life become in days to come..
the commanders in my platoon were quite nice ppl..
my section commander is a handsome n love to tok cock guy.. LOL.. my platoon is always damn freaking happy whenever he is the DI of platoon 4 for the day..
my section mates are nice ppl too.. humourous ppl.. fun to be with.. n they love to sing.. haha..

my bookout was generally so awesome wif the company of baby.. was realli happy tt she planned quite long n prepared early in the morning to surprise me wif a picnic at botanic garden.. heehee.. n im quite shocked tt she can realli make a simple ham n cheese sandwich n egg sandwich to become so tasty.. n oso.. her specialty was the apple wif raisin salad.. was realli nice upon my first time eating.. i believe this was her first time trying too.. happy n satisfied.. really thx baby for everything u planned.. love u..

for more pictures, kindly refer to my baby's blog.. hehe.. lazy to upload all..

will be confined again for 2more weeks becos of fieldcamp.. damn it.. sian..
i will miss my princess..
i will miss my family..
i will miss my snowball..
i will miss my bed..

2009-04-10T21:02:00.003+08:00

im left wif approximately 17 hours only.. n i'll be botak in around 21 hours bah..
i will miss my baby, my family, n my friends!!!
takecare ppl!

n thx baby for the present u gave mi.. i like it a lot a lot..
im touched seriously.. even though i didnt cry like wad u expected =p LOL

love u baby..
miss u

2009-04-05T22:07:00.003+08:00

6more days :(

ahhhh.. nw den i start to tink tt time is realli nt enuff.. still rmb months ago, right after Alvl.. im still thinking tt i hav a lot a lot of months n days b4 i will be enlisting..
summarising wad i hav done during my long break after Alvl..
-go out wif baby
-mahjong n mahjong wif frens
-work rtc for few weeks
-emoing
-worked sp for 1month nearing 2 months
-learnt driving
-happy to patch wif baby
-eat n eat till fat fat n fatter
-enjoyed all my time spent wif baby..

siannn.. heard frm zj xl n rayner abt ns.. n they were like complaining n finding all means n ways to chao keng.. report sick.. see mo etc... is ns life realli so boring? so dreadful? i hope i will enjoy the 2yrs of ns life..

ok... baby has been reminding mi tt i hav nt updated blog.. lol.. okok.. here i am.. blog abt u!
been gg out wif Miss Tan Khai Ting for the past few days..
wed accompanied this princess to bbdc for her ftt n glad tt she passed =D
thurs went to pick her up after her tuition n passed her the present..
fri went out her to celebrate our monthsary! <3
sat went to pick her up frm work at plaza sing n went for supper
sun slacked n movie at my hse n went for dinner! x)
n whenever im mahjonging.. tis princess of mine will call when she's gg to slp and demanded tt i must say smth to her b4 in front of my brothers!! LOL.. ok.. ILU a lot a lot BABY!! haha! dun laugh when u see tis at work! =)

ya basically tts all.. ive enjoyed being wif u, my dearest! =)
my previous post im still sad becos i tot u hav no time for me tis few days cos u even hav to work on weekends.. but it turned out that u actually took leave n try to squeeze out time for me.. im happy.. n contented.. thx my dear!
im still curious abt wad u are making for me!!! LOL..
i noe u hav been spending nights making it.. realli appreciate it!
oh ya.. u haben put the photos in thumbdrive for me!!!!!!

my princess =)

2009-03-29T21:34:00.001+08:00

i can understand.
im nt angry.
but im jus a little disappointed.

mayb it's part of human's emotions..

2009-03-25T13:05:00.001+08:00

17days

2009-03-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

love is to be maintained, not to be tested..
words should not be hurtful, use it to say i love you..

2009-03-19T13:47:00.001+08:00

quite an old song~ but quite a nice song~

什么是爱情是玫瑰是风铃
你只懂得给我这些玩意
我不稀罕这一切也不求命运
你该知道我真正需要你的心
什么是关心是甜言是蜜语
你只懂得表面敷衍我而已
我不明白当年我是怎么选择你
如今你已变了心对我不理

我至今才发现我自己
在玩一个无聊的游戏
其中的规矩由你定
我只是小小的陪衬品
你究竟要骗我到哪里
你伤我难道还不轻
我就这一颗脆弱的心
放我去我至少有美好的回忆

什么是伤心是泪水是遗弃
你只懂得表露自私的神情
我不知道分离能否解决所有的问题
每当你转身回避我都痛心

我至今才发现我自己
在玩一个无聊的游戏
其中的规矩由你定
我只是小小的陪衬品
你究竟要骗我到哪里
你伤我难道还不轻
我就这一颗脆弱的心
放我去我至少有美好的回忆

我至今才发现我自己
在玩一个无聊的游戏
其中的规矩由你定
我只是小小的陪衬品
你究竟要骗我到哪里
你伤我难道还不轻
我就这一颗脆弱的心
放我去我至少有美好的回忆

我就这一颗脆弱的心
放我去我至少有美好的回忆

2009-03-14T19:57:00.003+08:00

went to ntu today.. kind of confused over wad i wanna choose.. all the talks etc like telling me tat all the courses are good, making me even harder to make a choice.. damn..
but currently.. im kinda interested in mechanical engineering n specialise in marine n offshore engineering or aeronautical engineering.. chemistry & biological chemistry.. chemistry and biomedical engineering.. im still tinking abt business, but i tink chances are damn low..

i realli scare tt we will quarrel over small small issue, i dun wan to be like last time like tt.. read frm a magazine abt horoscope that tis month will like quarrel over small issues.. i dunno how true n i dun wish to be believe it.. but i jus want to avoid n prevent it.. i'll compromise for all i can.. but hope tt u will try to..

2009-03-13T00:43:00.006+08:00

yeah.. im back to blog..
first of all.. the happiest thing tt im feeling nw is tt tmr will be my last day of work at sp.. woohoo!!
finally i can be at home during weekdays.. so, jus feel free to jio me out during weekdays or to play badminton or basketball or even mahjong!! =)

im left with 29days b4 i go ns.. i really hope my last 29days can be very happy.. i wan enjoy myself b4 i go tekong..

been thinking abt courses which i would like to take in uni these few days.. one word.. HEADACHE!
im nt satisfied wif my result! or in fact quite disappointed.. i see my frens around me getting their Bs n As for GP, but im the suckest one wif a S.. yes.. a failed one.. dumbshit.. a lot ppl have talked to me regarding failing gp.. i understood.. but it's jus very sad to fail a subject at Alvl, esp the most impt gp.. it really makes mi very worried when thinking abt wad course should i choose, will i be rejected becos of my gp? my prefered courses are business, but it requires AAAA which i oni hav half of it.. industrial & system engineering which is the same AAAA.. damn..chem engineering oso AAAA.. maritime studies which requires ABBB but has oni 49 places in ntu.. or maritime studies with business major which requires AABA but has oni 16places in ntu.. all these courses which i desired can say is impossible for mi to get in bah.. nt oni becos of my gp cos i can retake at the end of tis yr.. but oso my h2.. i gt AAC.. the C there is jus so disgusting!!! realli regretted not studying hard for phy.. if i gt a B instead.. it will be so much better.. haix..

guess i will hav a decision after i go for the open hse on saturday bah..

im really scare things will be like last time.. there's a lot of things i dun even dare to mention again.. i hope things will be fine..

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背後去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

frm fb..

in touch with you emotions

you look a bit deeper into a person before accepting them and you show people around you how you feel not afraid who says anything, you'd rather end up with someone not good looking but would be there for you at the end of the day, you go for it 100% when you go into a relationship and usualy take a long time to get over the person you dated last just remember you should rather go out and meet people than sit at home and sulk about what you thought was love, so dont let 3 strikes keep you from getting back in there and bating, you are a beuatiful person stay the way you are and dont change for the world

2009-03-08T01:28:00.001+08:00

disappointment.

2009-03-05T23:48:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!
Alvl results will be released in around 14.5hours time..
yes.. im so nervous..
i want to do well.. but i doubt tt i can do it, cos i tink i did not put in my 100% effort..
god bless.

i cant slp. :(

我应该知足了..

2009-03-03T10:01:00.004+08:00

pangpang is having sorethroat and flu today! :(:(:(:(:(:( i wan go home.. dun wan work!!!! :(:(:(:(:(

2009-03-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

may god bless me.

2009-02-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

Love hurts when you break up with some one.
Hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person,
you love has no idea how you feel.

2009-02-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

another boring week is gg to be over soon.. everyday i will say the same thing..
"很累leh，不想上班.." but in the end i still went-.- tmr is friday.. last 55 dollars i will earn for the week.. sian.. still thinking of how i can entertain myself for the 8hrs tmr! :(

results gg to be released soon.. tink 6march? nxt fri.. im nt realli nervous abt it eh.. is tis smth wrong? or maybe i gt a feeling i wont do well bah): time is running out.. im gg ns in april.. it seems so far.. but yet it's so near...
i dun tink ive really enjoy myself b4 i go tekong..

im doubting my choice.. i really dunno if wad im doing is right or wrong..
does it improve anything? or jus nth at all?
im running out of time

2009-02-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

2009-02-22T01:31:00.001+08:00

now i'm missin' you and i'm wishin' you would come back through my door..

2009-02-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

im sorry my frens..
i noe u guys are concerned..
but i really dun hav an answer now..
im really at a lost..
i really duno what to do..
becos i noe i love her..

2009-02-19T23:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday KT!

biao da ai ~ 表达爱 [Artist: Lin Jun Jie & Liao Jun]

2009-02-16T06:26:00.003+08:00

omg.. i jus read aiwei's blog.. i dunno wad exactly happened to her fren.. i tink he passed away?
what happened if someone close to me realli pass away the next moment? i was asked 2days ago too.. if im the unlucky one to pass away? will my existence makes a difference? i dunno.. where will i go when im dead? what will the place be like? hell or heaven? it's all a question mark!?!

sian.. jus played overnight mahjong wif yichuan, benben and hwanhong..
i suddenly feel the sense of loneliness n emptiness after they went off.. silence, my whole room suddenly turned so quiet that jus cant stop mi from thinking of a lot of things..
im thinking of someone.. tat someone..
im realli confused! i dunno whether what im doing is right or am i jus doing smth to convince myself that i still hav hope..
heard quite a lot a lot of advices recently frm my frens.. many different perspectives..
mostly were against while oni a few supported wad im doing.. wad tangwah told me the previous night really has a great impact in me n made mi think over it again n again.. wad should i do?
跟着感觉?
i nid an answer.. seriously.. i dun wan tis to drag on..
but.. 开不了口 :(

20feb.. i will noe my decision.. deadline..

2009-02-14T23:15:00.001+08:00

2009-02-14T00:34:00.002+08:00

First of all.. Happy Valentine Day to all!!!

went to pjc for the orientation finale jus now to meet my classmates, n frens!
played basketball wif the odacians! n against some ex students frm my batch.. intense match! but fun.. so long nv play le.. lol.. as usual, when the sky darkened, the music is on.. n the dances came in! pjc mass dance, fun dance, n dunno wad else de dances nv fail to make the college high on the finale night annually.. didnt join the dance but sat aside wif the odacians cos i dunno how to dance.. forgot! haha.. when the pj newbies, the j1s went up to hall for their performances, the parade square simply became the frisbee ground.. haha.. seldom play frisbee wif in sch, but oni at sentosa wif class guys.. anw.. regretted nt joining odac instead.. haha jk.. badminton is still wad i preferred! =D

when the whole event ended, went to lot 1 mac to hav dinner! the whole mac is like so freaking hot, the air con nt working bah.. gt a suddenly craving for beef n so i ordered big mac meal!! regretted.. the worst meal i ever had.. nt becos of the food.. but becos of the heat.. i took a lot a lot of serviettes(did i spell it correctly?), but not to wipe my hands or mouth, but to wipe away the nv ending dripping perspiration on my face... damn.. imagine the surrounding temperature!=C one thing i must mention.. haha.. yichuan is realli nt the yichuan we noe when he's wif his baby.. lol.. we will be like transparent n they are jus being in their own world in front of us.. lol.. too sweet le i will say? lol..

valentine day supposed to be a happy day for everyone.. but im still worrying how mine will be.. hope i'll find my happy ending..

Love is not an exam to pass or fail,
Love is not a competition to win or lose,
but Love is a feeling in which you care for someone more than yourself..
can u feel my love for you?

2009-02-11T09:27:00.001+08:00

天天都有落叶特别是今夜
当沙沙的风吹每一片叶掉一滴泪
夜夜有人心碎他们相信谁
当爱被解了约作何感觉
莫非无尤也无悔依旧痴痴收藏落叶
傻的心傻到哭也流不出泪
我无所谓我冷若冰淡若水
我不为梦留一点空侵掠我紧闭心扉
当感情是唯一解不开的结
而人爱听谁伤了谁
我愿是风中飘然轻落的叶
我无所谓我伤过心掉过泪
我只在乎爱本无罪
何苦要陷入重围
当世界被感情蒙上一曾灰而我
宁愿是最後的落叶

2009-02-10T15:21:00.005+08:00

不明白.请说明.

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

2009-02-09T15:46:00.000+08:00

If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light
That makes my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

More and more
I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms
I know that's it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
(It's all right)
When you're right here by my side
(By my side)
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

2009-02-09T14:20:00.004+08:00

此刻我有着一种很难受的感觉, 不知所措..
对你的疑惑, 我也对自己失去了信心..
失望..
已变成了一种空等待..

有谁能教我怎么做?

2009-02-08T21:26:00.000+08:00

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙

在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

2009-02-08T00:23:00.003+08:00

whee!! went to nike warehse sale at expo wif kt today.. nt bad eh.. the stuff there quite cheap!!
bought a white nike polo tee and a cap.. hahaha... a cap to cover my botak head in april..
after tt headed to achor point to eat steamboat for 2 at koufu.. damn nice.. it's oni 26, means 13 per person.. cheap n nice.. damn filling too! worth the money! wonder y sp de koufu dun hav sia :( n yes.. once again.. highly recommended by pangpang.. so all the gluttons out there.. try it!
wanted to take pics of the meal when the soup was served, but decided to take one after the ingredients come.. but.. i was too freaking hungry and so i forgot to take! but i still took 2 pics of the meal while eating halfway..

after dinner.. went to queensway! AND!! I PIERCED MY LEFT EAR! my first one!! wahahahaha...
HUANG ZHUN JIAN who is in tekong nw.. if u gt the chance to see tis! i tell u.. ive pierced! hahaha.. we mentioned abt wanna pierce for 2yrs++ but always chickened out outside the shop.. wahaha.. ive done it.. when's ur turn?? hahaha.. let's be tekong chao ah beng tgt!

2009-02-06T23:54:00.003+08:00

been working for the whole week.. damn tiring... bad things happened and work is no longer the same.. liew decided to quit and nv join back :( sian.. who is gg to talk cock wif me at work nw? who is gg to pei me eat a damn large plate of rice during lunch nw? NOOOOO!! anw.. work is damn sian today.. heard frm maggie tt liew is quitting and i gt no mood to work.. damn sian.. slacked frm 11am till 1pm for lunch.. after lunch worked an hour plus n slacked all the way till 5pm.. headed to plaza sing for dinner n walked around town.. im tired.. realli tired..

i jus wan u to be happy.

2009-01-30T22:32:00.001+08:00

2009-01-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

cny has been the same for years.. nth special.. dunno why every year cny i feel the same way, always there's smth that will linger in me which wont make me feel happy during tis festival..
work resumed.. sian.. gt to wake up early again -.-

也许我真的已经失去了, 永远也找不回来了..
never meant to be anymore..

2009-01-25T13:40:00.000+08:00

张惠妹-你好不好

你什么都没说只是牵着我的手
那一秒钟也胜过一句爱我
你手中的温柔还在我心里逗留
爱情却已变成停格的镜头
感觉少了些什么
你好不好当你开口对我这么说
我就懂了你做的选择爱若让你变得不快乐
我宁愿还给你自由
也许我应该保持沉默
留给彼此一个再见的理由
但在你转身后眼泪却不停流
我并不是懦弱害怕面对独自生活
只是你的影子总跟着我走
让我的心不自由
我想我已学会了和寂寞做朋友
只是我想起你居然有一道伤口
隐隐作痛

2009-01-24T14:34:00.002+08:00

went out wif lulu. maggie and yuehan yesterday.. supposed to go eat dimsum buffet at plaza sing, but ended up not eating as laobeijing oni resume the buffet offer on 10feb onwards.. :(sadded:( went for mos burger instead.. haha.. walked around shopshop talktalk n went for badminton buffet at clementi area sakura.. was shocked to see weicheang at taka working as a promoter for new year goodie.. haha.. rich man's son oso nid to work..

sakura buffet was rather boring, food i ate was somewhat the same as wad i ate last yr.. sianzz..

mr tbp told me tis on msn today..
"once you missed a good catch, you may lose it forever.."
will i ever regret?

2009-01-22T23:49:00.001+08:00

不知你是佛会看到，如果我那翻话让你感到不自在或是伤心流泪，很抱歉。。

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过

不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你

我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你。。

2009-01-21T22:53:00.003+08:00

im back frm genting.. will upload some pics we took after i get them frm tangwah..

been thinking for nights.. ive came to a decision..
i give up.

你值得我珍惜
也值得我放弃.

2009-01-18T21:28:00.003+08:00

i will be away for until wed.. will be gg genting wif a few classmates..

once upon a time
the angel loved me so
it's a miracle
in the snow my heart won't be cold

my dear,you are my angel
tell me what you know
something should be told

my dear,you are my angel
tell me where you go
I will breathe behind your love

be back soon..

2009-01-18T04:23:00.001+08:00

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now
and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain
of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile
when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed,
livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words
that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

2009-01-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分

沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
想回到过去

hav been working at sp admin building for the past 4 days.. later will be the fifth day.. quite tired as i no longer hav the time to slp long hours till noon, slack at home watch drama like before :( gt to wake up at 6.45am latest every morning :'( hell! jus like sch days.. workplace has been pleasant, colleagues are nice ppl.. helpful, friendly.. mostly from pjc..

went straight to play badminton at sp after work today.. hh, ben, syed, kuo un came to join me, pris, lulu n his bro.. fun i would say.. like quite long nv play badminton le.. feels great to sweat it out.. but nw so tired.. gt to slp le.. another fifth 6.45am in a week im waking up in 4 hours+ time T.T

2009-01-14T18:57:00.000+08:00

C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why
So if I did something wrong please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cos I don't want this love to ever end
(And) I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
(Oh yeah) And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
Oh yes you are (by my side)
I watched you go
Takin' my heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time I try to reach you on the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home
So if I did something wrong please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cos I don't want this love to ever end
(No, no, no, no)
(And) I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
(Oh yeah) And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
Oh yes you are (by my side)
Maybe I didn't know how to show it
(How to show it)
Maybe I didn't know what to say
(What to say)
This time I won't disguise
(Won't disguise)
Then we can build our lives
And we can be as one (be as one)
(And) I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
(Oh yeah) And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
Oh yes you are (by my side)
(And) I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
(Oh yeah) And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life)
Oh yes you are (by my side)

2009-01-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

在一起叫梦分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛

2009-01-13T17:13:00.000+08:00

hohoho... im at work nw.. damn sian.. waiting for 5.30 to come n off i go..

2009-01-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
I'll Be Waiting

2009-01-11T03:06:00.003+08:00

haiz.. damn.. how i noe the fuking guests will put their fuking side plates on the fuking platter sia...
fine.. my table.. i screw up lo.. haiz.. maybe yesterday was the last day im working at rtc bah.. or maybe a few more sats if possible..

starting work as an admin boy in singapore poly on monday.. hope it's not sian..

yesterday wedding dinner was quite a big event.. 48 tables.. and a 9 courses dinner.. finished serving at around 11.15pm.. was damn late.. half way thru the dinner, the cousins of the wedding couple went up the stage to sing the song "每天爱你多一些".. made me even more emo.. i really dunno wad else i can do now...

there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in...
if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
i would sing to you and tell you i wont
live my life without you

if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know i never let you go..

好想你..

2009-01-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

looking at the clock nw... it's 1234am.. tis no. hav been quite significant.. hav some meaning behind..

working at rtc later.. sian!
starting work at lu's workplace on monday..

my world came crushing in.. leaving no mercy..

2009-01-09T03:37:00.001+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh... i cant slp!!! :(

2009-01-08T20:31:00.002+08:00

i wish, i hope, i pray.. will it come true?

isit an empty hope?
好想你.. 但又能怎样?

2009-01-07T16:52:00.001+08:00

期待已退化成等待而我告别了突然..

2009-01-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

ya i passed my BTT.. i can apply for PDL n go on practical lesson le..
went for my BTT n lunch n mahjong at my place wif yichuan tangwah andrew sijin.. lost 20cents in the first game.. after tt.. 2nd game de dong feng, i won 42.50 le.. but after tt lost back 4.40.. ended up wif 38.10.. won money, but im nt realli happy..

is the saying "赌场得意, 情场殊异" really true? :(

my feeling is there but smile is gone.
i noe the feeling when we meet is already no longer the same, tt is the worst thing. becos i can no longer do anything, when the feeling no longer exist.

why is 老天 so cruel to me? must well kill me.. fuck it..

2009-01-05T01:29:00.001+08:00

whatever it will be.

2009-01-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

淘汰
演唱：陈奕迅
词曲：周杰伦

我说了所有的谎
你却都相信
简单的我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情
我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾

我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了

情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是K歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开淌下句点

只能说我认了
你的不安得到的信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了

情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是K歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱褶
你却用离开淌下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到的信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

2009-01-03T03:33:00.003+08:00

i cant slp.. came here to blog hop.. noticed everyone has been posting on their views n opinions on 2008 n their new year resolution for 2009.. maybe i shall do the same too..

2008 has been a year full of ups n downs for me..

started sch in jan 08 wif a mind full of rtc table settings, ovaltrays etc.. badminton...

yes.. slack and slp... but jus no mood to study, knowing tt it's a year for Alvl...

started to get real bonded wif the class..

slept a lot in gp, econs and phy lessons..

talked alot wif si jin in phy pracs n gt scolded..

started "qing bao ku" wif few guys..

failing my midyear damn badly.. on the verge of giving up.. wanting to go poly... but stayed on.. n persevered through..

expecting someone to walk past g3-64 giving me a smile tt brighten up my day..

gg canteen for recesses hoping to meet someone wif the same recess break..

looking at clock hoping tt lessons can end earlier to hav mugging sessions wif someone..

sunday library mug out sessions..

finally tgt..

my pillar of strength which kept me gg on until after As..

encouragements.. cute pencil case..

stickers n drawings on foolscape pads, graphic calculator, scientific calculator..

tibits, sweets.. macs..

chem chem chem.. phy phy phy.. econs econs econs econs..

papers n papers..

consultations..

n finally Alvl over..

chalet..

brothers..

stayover..

mahjong..

play play play..

rtc again..

money..

jus as 2008 was ending.. everything that used to be joyous n happiness to me turned into a world of sadness...

everything was jus like a dream.. ive woke up.. no more..

n 2009 is here..
wad should i look forward to?
more work at rtc?
ns? bmt? run, pump, march?
smth which i noe is quite unlikely to happen, but still clinging on a hope to it?
i really dunno wad i wan to achieve in 2009..
is it really a "happy 2009" ?

2009-01-03T01:47:00.004+08:00

jus came back from work.. partnered weixuan.. partnered her once b4.. she's really good.. helped quite a lot.. so much better than those others whom i partnered b4.. really enjoy working wif her.. fast n efficient!

today is 3rd jan, supposingly our 4th monthsary.. i really hope things can change for the better.. i really hope u will give our relationship another chance.. i'll wait for u..becos i really love u..

2009-01-01T02:23:00.003+08:00

i noe i shouldnt be feeling emo.. but i jus cant help it..
i wan go ns asap!! it sounds like a place where there is no worries and no stress.. peace.. like becoming a non-vegetarian monk...

我方佛绕过了天堂，体验了一辈子最幸福的美丽时光...
但这短暂的时光，就像是一场梦，醒来了，没了，全都破灭了...

2008-12-30T22:44:00.001+08:00

it's over.. really over nw :'(

2008-12-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

i dare not sleep.. keep on sleep 1 or 2 hours and suddenly wake up like having a nightmare then cant sleep again.. i hate this feeling :(

i hope things will change.. i noe it takes time.. n maybe never again..

2008-12-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

i wont be blogging for the time being..

i noe wad im experiencing is not the worst in life yet,
but it is the lowest in my life till nw..
i am emo, but i will try to get back myself..

2008-12-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

Oh I believe Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

2008-12-27T17:03:00.001+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔是因为我太爱你

2008-12-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

went our wif baby for lunch at laobeijing for high tea buffet.. it's so damn nice! nice recommendation by xl.. and the price is reasonable.. after gst n ser charge, 13.50 per person :):)
a great day out! gave baby the present that i bought.. hope she likes it :) n my baby baked cookies for me :):)

sent baby home and i went home to put things and change to bermudas as it was raining cats n dogs.. after that went down to raffles city to meet zhunjian xuanlong n rayner.. after that kenneth joined too.. but xl went home.. gab joined at 2.30am.. went to slack slack movie slack slack den came home.. lobang the guys' cab home as i realli no money le :( thx a lot guys.. so paiseh :(

i wan find another job to keep myself busy!! n oso earn money!! at 12am msg gabriel "merry christmas and may god bless all guys wif more money" lol.. and gab replied may money drops frm the sky!! lol... if the movie bedtime stories is real, i wish money can drop from the sky too instead of candies.. haha

im glad things are fine..
i felt a sudden change in my lifestyle in terms wad i normally do.. i tink i nid time to adapt to the change..

2008-12-23T23:36:00.001+08:00

may god bless everything..

hope everything will be ok.. get well

2008-12-21T17:12:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to mummy!!

im alone at hm nw.. damn fuking sian.. damn fuking bored..
parents went out to get something.. but tink now it's nt needed le..
jus called them to ask them no nid buy le..
disappointment..

i tot i would be happy.. but im not..

2008-12-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

i've tried driving a car!!! on the top lvl of my hse there de carpark! hohoho.. fun!! but nt as easy as i tot.. haha..

baby is back! :):)