cny has been the same for years.. nth special.. dunno why every year cny i feel the same way, always there's smth that will linger in me which wont make me feel happy during tis festival.. work resumed.. sian.. gt to wake up early again -.-
也许我真的已经失去了, 永远也找不回来了.. never meant to be anymore..
went out wif lulu. maggie and yuehan yesterday.. supposed to go eat dimsum buffet at plaza sing, but ended up not eating as laobeijing oni resume the buffet offer on 10feb onwards.. :(sadded:( went for mos burger instead.. haha.. walked around shopshop talktalk n went for badminton buffet at clementi area sakura.. was shocked to see weicheang at taka working as a promoter for new year goodie.. haha.. rich man's son oso nid to work..
sakura buffet was rather boring, food i ate was somewhat the same as wad i ate last yr.. sianzz..
mr tbp told me tis on msn today.. "once you missed a good catch, you may lose it forever.." will i ever regret?
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don't bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I'm doin' It It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken
What hurts the most Is being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do Not seeing that loving you That's what I was trying to do
hav been working at sp admin building for the past 4 days.. later will be the fifth day.. quite tired as i no longer hav the time to slp long hours till noon, slack at home watch drama like before :( gt to wake up at 6.45am latest every morning :'( hell! jus like sch days.. workplace has been pleasant, colleagues are nice ppl.. helpful, friendly.. mostly from pjc..
went straight to play badminton at sp after work today.. hh, ben, syed, kuo un came to join me, pris, lulu n his bro.. fun i would say.. like quite long nv play badminton le.. feels great to sweat it out.. but nw so tired.. gt to slp le.. another fifth 6.45am in a week im waking up in 4 hours+ time T.T
C'mon c'mon Yeah Can you feel me? (Baby can you feel me?) I got something to say Check it out For all this time I've been lovin' you girl Oh yes I have And ever since the day You left me here alone I've been trying to find Oh, the reason why So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand 'Cos I don't want this love to ever end (And) I swear If you come back in my life I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) (Oh yeah) And I swear I'll keep you right by my side 'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) Oh yes you are (by my side) I watched you go Takin' my heart with you Oh yes you did Every time I try to reach you on the phone Baby you're never there Girl you're never home So if I did something wrong please tell me I wanna understand 'Cos I don't want this love to ever end (No, no, no, no) (And) I swear If you come back in my life I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) (Oh yeah) And I swear I'll keep you right by my side 'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) Oh yes you are (by my side) Maybe I didn't know how to show it (How to show it) Maybe I didn't know what to say (What to say) This time I won't disguise (Won't disguise) Then we can build our lives And we can be as one (be as one) (And) I swear If you come back in my life I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) (Oh yeah) And I swear I'll keep you right by my side 'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) Oh yes you are (by my side) (And) I swear If you come back in my life I'll be there 'til the end of time (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) (Oh yeah) And I swear I'll keep you right by my side 'Cos baby you're the one I want (Back to me, back to me, back into my life) Oh yes you are (by my side)
hohoho... im at work nw.. damn sian.. waiting for 5.30 to come n off i go..
5:13 PM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I never felt nothing in the world like this before Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door Why did you have to go? You could have let me know So now I'm all alone, Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand And all my tears they keep running down my face Why did you turn away? So why does your pride make you run and hide? Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep inside This is not how you wanted to be So baby I will wait for you Cause I don''t know what else i can do Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life Baby I will wait for you If you think I'm fine it just aint true I really need you in my life No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you It's been a long time since you called me (How could you forget about me) You got me feeling crazy (crazy) How can you walk away, Everything stays the same I just can't do it baby What will it take to make you come back Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me Don't leave me crying. Baby why can't we just start over again Get it back to the way it was If you give me a chance I can love you right But your telling me it wont be enough So why does you pride make you run & hide Are you that afriad of me? But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside Thats not how you wanted to be Baby I will wait for you Baby I will wait for you If it's the last thing i do I'll Be Waiting
10:25 PM
all alone under the stars.; ;
haiz.. damn.. how i noe the fuking guests will put their fuking side plates on the fuking platter sia... fine.. my table.. i screw up lo.. haiz.. maybe yesterday was the last day im working at rtc bah.. or maybe a few more sats if possible..
starting work as an admin boy in singapore poly on monday.. hope it's not sian..
yesterday wedding dinner was quite a big event.. 48 tables.. and a 9 courses dinner.. finished serving at around 11.15pm.. was damn late.. half way thru the dinner, the cousins of the wedding couple went up the stage to sing the song "每天爱你多一些".. made me even more emo.. i really dunno wad else i can do now...
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in... if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i would sing to you and tell you i wont live my life without you
if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know i never let you go..
好想你..
3:06 AM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Saturday, January 10, 2009
looking at the clock nw... it's 1234am.. tis no. hav been quite significant.. hav some meaning behind..
working at rtc later.. sian! starting work at lu's workplace on monday..
my world came crushing in.. leaving no mercy..
12:34 AM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Friday, January 9, 2009
ahhhhhhhhh... i cant slp!!! :(
3:37 AM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Thursday, January 8, 2009
i wish, i hope, i pray.. will it come true?
isit an empty hope? 好想你.. 但又能怎样?
8:31 PM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
期待已退化成等待而我告别了突然..
4:52 PM
all alone under the stars.; ;
ya i passed my BTT.. i can apply for PDL n go on practical lesson le.. went for my BTT n lunch n mahjong at my place wif yichuan tangwah andrew sijin.. lost 20cents in the first game.. after tt.. 2nd game de dong feng, i won 42.50 le.. but after tt lost back 4.40.. ended up wif 38.10.. won money, but im nt realli happy..
is the saying "赌场得意, 情场殊异" really true? :(
my feeling is there but smile is gone. i noe the feeling when we meet is already no longer the same, tt is the worst thing. becos i can no longer do anything, when the feeling no longer exist.
why is 老天 so cruel to me? must well kill me.. fuck it..
i cant slp.. came here to blog hop.. noticed everyone has been posting on their views n opinions on 2008 n their new year resolution for 2009.. maybe i shall do the same too..
2008 has been a year full of ups n downs for me..
started sch in jan 08 wif a mind full of rtc table settings, ovaltrays etc.. badminton...
yes.. slack and slp... but jus no mood to study, knowing tt it's a year for Alvl...
started to get real bonded wif the class..
slept a lot in gp, econs and phy lessons..
talked alot wif si jin in phy pracs n gt scolded..
started "qing bao ku" wif few guys..
failing my midyear damn badly.. on the verge of giving up.. wanting to go poly... but stayed on.. n persevered through..
expecting someone to walk past g3-64 giving me a smile tt brighten up my day..
gg canteen for recesses hoping to meet someone wif the same recess break..
looking at clock hoping tt lessons can end earlier to hav mugging sessions wif someone..
sunday library mug out sessions..
finally tgt..
my pillar of strength which kept me gg on until after As..
encouragements.. cute pencil case..
stickers n drawings on foolscape pads, graphic calculator, scientific calculator..
jus as 2008 was ending.. everything that used to be joyous n happiness to me turned into a world of sadness...
everything was jus like a dream.. ive woke up.. no more..
n 2009 is here.. wad should i look forward to? more work at rtc? ns? bmt? run, pump, march? smth which i noe is quite unlikely to happen, but still clinging on a hope to it? i really dunno wad i wan to achieve in 2009.. is it really a "happy 2009" ?
3:33 AM
all alone under the stars.; ;
jus came back from work.. partnered weixuan.. partnered her once b4.. she's really good.. helped quite a lot.. so much better than those others whom i partnered b4.. really enjoy working wif her.. fast n efficient! today is 3rd jan, supposingly our 4th monthsary.. i really hope things can change for the better.. i really hope u will give our relationship another chance.. i'll wait for u..becos i really love u..
1:47 AM
all alone under the stars.; ;
Thursday, January 1, 2009
i noe i shouldnt be feeling emo.. but i jus cant help it.. i wan go ns asap!! it sounds like a place where there is no worries and no stress.. peace.. like becoming a non-vegetarian monk...